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april1978
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 Posted January 9th, 2010 11:17 AM IP   
I have been reading old and new posts about everyone and I wanted to share alittle bit of my experiences on my last few years. Alittle free time I and I dont know what to do with myself lol. Well my problems with adicittion didnt start untill 3 years ago after my c-cection. My son Anthony was a 27 week baby,I was clean didnt smoke or anything. He was 2.9 pounds and in the nicu for 2 1/2 months. This was devestating. Before I had my son i had 2 miscarrages and gave birth to a baby boy at 22 weeks, he passed away 8 hours after I had him....so you could imagine how I was with Anthony.Now hes 3 and weighs 36 pounds and is so perfect! While Ant was in the nicu I staied on percaset and after my script ran out i went to vikaden and back to the doc for stoumach pain, there they gave me more percacet. This went on for 2 years and when i tried to stop i couldnt.I tried to get into detox but they said theres a waiting list. I was on about 20 a day or more. Awhile later who would of guessed I am pregnant and needless to say scared to death. I told my doc after a couple app. what i was going through and they put me in detox and right on methadone. I started out at 40 and im at 85 now, Im hoping I dont go up anymore. We are 32 weeks on wednsday the 13th!! Im planning on detoxing after I have the baby, there going to take me down about 15 to 20 and then 5 a week, they said if it feels like to much to tell them and they will adjust it. Hopefully it works,Ill let everyone know. Hope I didnt bore anyone to death if I did im sorry. Im also sorry about the spelling and im not sure how to post yet so I hope this goes up right. Thank you everyone for the support and postings this has helped me so much!!
april
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angelntobi
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Posted January 10th, 2010 02:11 PM IP
Hi April1978~
Im sorry to hear about your experiences with miscarriage. I too have had a miscarriage but early on in my pregnancy 5yrs ago. Its horrible and traumatic what you had to go through physically and mentally. And Im so sorry. Im currently 33 wks prego now and excited but scared to death and praying that everything is going to be ok. Im happy to hear your Dr. helped you after you told him about your addiction. We need more Dr.s like that. It sounds like you are doing great now-You have a happy healthy lil boy at home and your current pregnancy is going good too. Ive been going to the clinic for methadone for almost 2yrs already. I started out at 30mg and have maintained 85mg for about a yr and a half. And Ive been split dosing(half in morning, half in evening) since I found out I was pregnant. And that has been great for me. I recommend split dosing to all of us and for me it seems to hold me throughout the day and night better than just taking the whole dose at one time. Anyways it sounds like you are on the right track and you have a good plan set in motion after you have baby. My only concern is that you might not want to rush off the methadone right away. Everyone is different and this is my opinion but ive heard this many times about getting off the methadone too quick after pregnancy. There may be some post pardum issues going on,or depression-our feelings and emotions get out of whack. We are also trying to adjust with a new baby to take care of. So there are many stresses.We are going to want to make it as easy for ourselves as we can after we have the baby. I also wanted to get off the methadone right after I have my son. Not cold turkey,I would get weaned off. But there is a part of me that is scared and not sure if I am ready. I think the best thing I can do for my son and myself is to stay on the methadone until I feel completely confident...and I will be working towards this as well. I just wanted to give you some things to think about. And if your plan has to change Dont feel bad. You sound like a strong woman and you do what you think is best for you. And I wish you good luck with everything!! So I dont think you said in your msg if you are having a boy or a girl? Our pregnancies are really close,my due date is February 23rd,2010. And is the time flying now or what!! lol. If you ever need to talk to someone about your pregnancy ,methadone,things going on at home,Anything-jus msg me and I'll give you my #. All these women on here are extremely helpful and so understanding. Its great to have such an awesome support system and be able to talk and ask anything! Dont ever think that you could bore anyone ever even in the least little bit-thats impossible hun!! There is absolutely nothing you could say to bore any of us!Your story, you are very couragous to come out and tell some very personal things about yourself. Every experience that a person shares Helps another person(s) in some way with what they are going through. Well keep in touch and keep us all posted with the rest of your pregnacy. We are all here to support you after you have your baby as well so dont forget!
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Vicky in UK
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Posted January 13th, 2010 05:41 AM IP
Hey April!!!!
Thanks for sharing some of your experience, with us! I'm so glad you felt comfortable enough to do that! I am just so, so sorry to hear about all that you have been through! I can not imagine how hard it was for you Sweetie!!!! We all worry during pregnancy, but it must have been an extremely bittersweet time for you lately. Your excitement at being preggers, mustbe a little marred by worry. But so far so good and I am so pleased for you that your pregnancy is going well so far! And I just pray that all will be well with your little one! And I just wanted to say you sound like a great Mum!
Another important thing to remember is only detox if you feel it's the right time. Detoxing with a newborn isn't easy Hun! But if you do choose to detox, make sure you do it at a rate you are comfortable with. Thanks again for sharing with us!
Love Vicky x
(Edited by Vicky in UK)
VICKY
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fascination
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Posted January 13th, 2010 11:54 AM IP
April and Angelntobi, Wow, all three of us have due dates that are close together! I'm due February 17th. This pregnancy has gone by so fast. I can't believe that I'll have a baby in my arms next month!
JENN
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angelntobi
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Posted January 14th, 2010 01:06 AM IP
WOW I know right-a baby in arms next month. In the beginning- the time seemed to go by slowww but now its like a dream that I havent woken from yet bcuz Im having a BABY!! lol Im still in awe and disbelief. And now that there isnt much time left til I have lil precious the more worried and freaked out Im getting. The biggest worry is the whole NAS thing and how hes going to be once hes born. Its going to be the hardest thing Ive ever had to deal with Im sure, to have to see my child suffer. Oh God its going to be unbearable. I keep thinking that this is supposed to be the most wonderful day of my life-giving birth to my first child. And it will be, but then theres the whole getting sick with withdrawal and him having to stay in the hospital for however long. The thought that Im not going to be able to bring him home right away like most moms is tearing me up inside. And then what Im going to have to tell family about why hes there and all the other stresses,ya know. I really am trying to stay positive and Im going to be positive and hope for the best ,ofcourse, with everything. Im just scared. The main thing is that he is born healthy. Just a little venting helps-thanks for listening...
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Jessica1381
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Posted January 14th, 2010 03:15 PM IP
april1978,
First congrats on your pregnancy and welcome to our site! I want to comend you on going to your doctor and telling them what was going on so you could get help! That takes a lot of courage and you did it!  You should be so proud of yourself for that! I also must say that you are very strong for having gone through what you have. That is admireable! My fiance lost his 1st born son to SIDS in 02'. He was devistated. It takes a strong person to work through that and go on with life. I really feel for you.
I was wondering, if you dont mind me asking though, why the rush to get off methadone right after you have the baby? I am just asking because it concerns me and I personally with any of my clients at work or for any of the women I talk to here, recomend that AT THE LEAST you wait 6 months before you start to decrease your dose to come off methadone. I mean its one thing if you have to go down a little after the baby is born because you find that your dose makes you tired and is too much, but to just try to come off and go off right after having a baby doing 5 mgs a week. Please maybe rething your plan a little. The best success I have seen is when the mother waits at least 1 year after the birth of her baby to start her taper off methadone and that is providing she has things situated and all her supports in order and that she is ready. Having another baby is going to be a big adjustment and your are going to be tired from taking care of a newborn baby and your other child. Just be careful hun. I want to see all my moms here do well and I worry when it seems so fast. Also, I tried tapering off that fast a year ago and I went into withdrawals so bad. It was awful. I had to go back up. Then I decided to wait a while longer before I did it. I was not going down 5 mgs again as I did last time, just as you said you planned to do. Everyone is different and you may not have the same experience as I did. Just pay close attention top your body if this is what you want to do after you have the baby. If it feels like its too much then slow down or take a break. Dont rush. It will make things so much harder. Well, I am here for you no matter what you decide to do! We will all be here to root you on! Good luck and I hope to talk with you more as time passes!
Hugs, Jessica
Jessica Jensen,CSAC, CMA
Primary Pregnancy Support Specialist
Certified Substance Abuse Counselor
Certified Methadone Advocate
Certified Hepatitis C Basic Educator
Member of NAADAC, AATOD & MOAR
testing for CADAC1 in June 2010
Jessica@MethadoneSupport.org
1-860-798-5785
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fascination
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Posted January 15th, 2010 09:01 PM IP
Angelntobi, anytime you want to vent, I'm here! LOL. I'm worried about NAS too but we'll get through it. We did the best thing for our babies in our situation. And you know what? Your baby may not even have NAS! You'll have to post some pics when your little one is finally here. I will too.
JENN
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fascination
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Posted January 15th, 2010 09:08 PM IP
April, thank you for sharing your story. I too would like to start tapering again after my daughter is born. I think I'm going to wait a while though, and when I do do it I'm going to go really slow.
You did the right thing getting yourself into treatment! I know that it must have been very hard. And just think, in 8 weeks your baby will be here!
JENN
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Jessica1381
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Posted January 17th, 2010 07:27 AM IP
april1978,
Hey hun! I just wanted to see how you are doing! Is everything okay? Hope to hear from you again soon! Remember there is no reason to rush off treatment. Give yourself time to adjust to the new baby and life as a mom! You will come off soon enough, just give it time! Try to wait at least 6 months... Anyway, I hope you are doing ok. If you need to talk we are here for you.
Hugs, Jessica
Jessica Jensen,CSAC, CMA
Primary Pregnancy Support Specialist
Certified Substance Abuse Counselor
Certified Methadone Advocate
Certified Hepatitis C Basic Educator
Member of NAADAC, AATOD & MOAR
testing for CADAC1 in June 2010
Jessica@MethadoneSupport.org
1-860-798-5785
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april1978
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Posted January 18th, 2010 09:44 PM IP
well i just wrote a bunch and it was deleted (we all know how aggervating that is) so heres the short of it lol. i listened and thought about everything everyone had to say and i am only cutting back 5 at a time. a new baby and getting my son adjusted (not to mention hes been at his dads since ive been in the hosp) is going to be a handful.so its not a good idea to cut myself off, or back that much.so thank you everyone for pointing out some of the things you did it helped me and its going to help me alot in the long run.I HAVE A POST 32 WEEKS AND IN THE HOSP. IM GOING TO UPDATE IT TONIGHT.thanks again!!!
april
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